Wednesday, January 17, 2007

For Me This Is Heaven

"For Me This Is Heaven" by Jimmy Eat World
The first star I see may not be a star/We can't do a thing but wait/So let's wait for one more/The time such clumsy time in deciding if it's time/I'm careful but not sure how it goes/You can loose yourself in your courage/The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans/This is what she says gets her through it:"If I don't let myself be happy now then when?"If not now when?/When the time we have now ends/When the big hand goes round again/Can you still feel the butterflies?/Can you still hear the last goodnight?/Close my eyes and believe wherever you are, an angel for me/

So, I had this song on my MP3 player while I was bathing Addy this afternoon. (It's really such a beautiful, wistful melody. Just reading the lyrics doesn't entirely do it justice.) But anyways, it was just totally choking me up, because Addy was being so sweet, she was all fresh and clean and wrapped in a white towel, and while I was patting her face dry, she put her little hands on both my shoulders and leaned in to give me a big, smiling kiss. And I thought, "I will never have this moment again." I wanted to hug her forever.

3 comments:

Jess said...

Great. Damn these pregnancy hormones...now I'm crying.

That's so sweet :)

desperate housewife said...

Whoops, sorry! Get used to it, though, let me tell you.

Anonymous said...

Made a "menopausal" person cry, too . . . ditto re: the hormones!!!
Those are the moments that make "Mom" the best and most important job you'll EVER have (even if you get to dress better and get paid for the others!)