On The Mend

I'm going to do a picture post soon (which will include pictures of the SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY my husband and family orchestrated for me!) as soon as I get motivated enough to walk ALL the way to the kitchen to get the camera. In the meantime, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who is frequently updating their blog, and apologize for not commenting much. I also apologize for not doing much with my blog other than to use it as an emotional dumping ground. But I figure that's what it's there for, sometimes. I just don't want you all thinking I am feeling nothing but moody and reflective these days, and that when not openly sobbing I am sitting in a chair staring wistfully out the window while Sarah Mclachlan plays in the background.

Today, for example, I went to the gym, to a coffeehouse (with the kids!) and then took them to our local Children's Garden, which is basically heaven on earth this time of year. I smiled the whole time. Except maybe for when I had to explain to the daycare ladies at the Y where we had been the last month or so. "I've been sick," I replied briefly, not feeling inclined to explain that first I had been pregnant, i.e. exhausted and nauseous, and then I had been, well, sick, I guess in a manner of speaking. Cytotec is no picnic (especially THREE ROUNDS of it.)

As far as updates on that mess, I still might have to have a d and c, apparently, but we're keeping our fingers crossed. The last round of Cytotec did absolutely nothing that it was supposed to, and just made me violently sick to my stomach for two days. So they had me stop it, and checked my blood levels to see if the hcg was finally going down. If it wasn't, I was going to have the d and c today. Fortunately it was down enough to give me some wiggle room, so we're going to keep an eye on the blood levels next week and just hope that my body will at some point get its act together and do its job. If not, I still might be heading to ye olde outpatient care next Friday to have the doctor do it for me. But here's hoping.