Thursday, March 26, 2009

:(

Well. Not this month, I'm afraid. I feel pretty let down, because, despite knowing in my head that one success does not guarantee another, I was still expecting that since it only took one cycle of Clomid for Eli, it would only take one cycle this time, too. Dumb. Well, and also I was having quite a bit of a particular symptom of early pregnancy- let's just call it east-bray enderness-tay- but apparently that was all due to the progesterone supplements I'd been taking. That fun side effect is still lingering, along with some pretty wicked cramps, so you can only imagine the charming mood I'm in. And AND I burnt another batch of cookies.

We're still trying to decide if we should take a break this month or give it another shot. We have to decide today, because if we're going ahead I need to get an ultrasound asap and then start taking the drugs tomorrow. I'm feeling pretty wrung out, though, mentally and even physically, so I'm thinking we'll wait. All those extra hormones do take a toll. Plus, if we got pregnant this month, I'd be due December 28th. If I followed my usual pattern and went on bedrest the last month, that would be awfully inconvenient for everybody involved. On the other hand- waiting. Not my forte.

23 comments:

Pickles and Dimes said...

I'm so sorry. I hope the next round is THE one.

Swistle said...

Sad emoticon! I think I'd want a month off, too. To drink and eat what I wanted, for one thing.

Mommy Daisy said...

Aww, I'm so sorry. Maybe taking a month off would be just the thing. Just thinking about a due date around Christmas makes me cringe. Plus with your history of bed-rest...that would be tough. Good luck.

Jess said...

Damn! I was SO SURE. I'm sorry! But I do think that taking a month off sounds smart. Plus, nobody likes having a Christmas birthday any more than they like being due around Christmas.

Lisa said...

I'm sorry to read this. I think taking a break would be a good idea.

I have a Christmas time baby (December 19th) and it's hard to make the day all about him when everyone is so focused on Christmas.

CAQuincy said...

:-(

I'm sorry. Sending even MORE positive vibes your way.

d e v a n said...

Sorry! :( Stupid hormones for no good reason. ((Hug))

Joanna said...

I'm a new reader & I think you're a fabulous writer--and I'm sorry it didn't happen this month. Your sense of perspective (and often humor) is enviable, but I'm with you on finding it hard to wait. What I just decided was to pick an "ideal window"--for me, between August and December--to get pregnant with #2. That way, I hopefully won't get TOO hung up on what happens the first or second month of trying, and I can enjoy the time leading up to it as my "last opportunity to enjoy sangria" or "last month of buying non-maternity clothes." Knowing my non-pregnant time is finite makes me less impatient and more easily distracted while I wait.

Mimi said...

Oh no! I am so sad to hear this.
I can't imagine how those hormones must be making you feel.

Tess said...

Oh hon. I'm sorry.

I'm with Swistle on the eating-and-also-DRINKING-did-I-mention-DRINKING thing.

Fine For Now said...

*hmpf*

*pout*

*grrr*

*sigh*

*wine*

:o)

clueless but hopeful mama said...

Oh crap. SO sorry to hear it is not to be this cycle. I wish you could take some time to decide about waiting another month. I wish this didn't have to be so challenging for you. I wish there was something I could do....

Nowheymama said...

I'm so sorry.

Jana said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry. On the bright side, you can have some wine, which I know always makes me feel better in times like these. :)

Shelly Overlook said...

I'm sorry.

Shelly said...

I'm so sorry, sweetie. But I'm with Swistle and Tess on the DRINKING. Start early.

RachelAnn said...

sorry sis

bat7mess said...

I am so sorry :( Use this time to eat lots of raw cookie dough and drink the pains and sorrow away. I hope it happens as soon as you decide to try again. And thanks for letting so many people share this with you. It's a very personal journey, but I hope the fact that lots of people (many who are strangers, like myself) are rooting you on helps you in some way.

Maggie said...

I'm sorry that this wasn't your month. :( But my fingers are already crossed for the next try!

Bird said...

Man. I'm sorry.

Hillary said...

Oh dear. I'm so sorry.

artemisia said...

I am sorry, honey.

Astarte said...

Oh, no. I don't think I'd be able to wait, either. Plus, what a GREAT excuse to not have to travel, shop, or do anything you don't want to do over the holidays!