Arrg. Am I ever going to feel like writing again? (Answer: yes, as soon as the baby comes and I have 1) lots of adorable newborn pictures, 2) blow-by-blow Epic Five Page Birth Story, 3) some level of postpartum depression, 4) lots of panic/sleep deprivation/funny stories about how overwhelmed I am and how trashed our house is and how I haven't showered in two days.)
So until then, when things are relatively fine and I feel relatively fine and everything is calm and bright and all that jazz, I just don't seem to have much to say. Or it could be that this pregnancy has rendered me, while generally happy, utterly brain dead. Example:
Jim, last night while catching up on 24 episodes together: You know, we haven't played a game together in about four months.
Me, sprawled on couch, staring at TV: Yeah, I'm just always so tired and kind of mentally out of it by the time the kids are in bed.
Jim: Actually, that's why I brought it up. You had a REALLY brain dead look on your face just now. Like you were awake but really asleep.
I have been sick with stupid sinus/cough stuff again, though, so there's that excuse. Over a week now, and still not all the way gone. Also, there's some family stuff going on taking up most of my precious, carefully rationed mental energy, so for all I know I could be writing incomprehensible gibberish right now that just SOUNDS okay to me because I am operating on the level of a fifth grader writer right now. I am sorry, guys. I am very sorry. And my marriage blog! How it languishes! And I haven't even started the baby blog I was planning on! And worst of all, I've only written in my pregnancy journal ONCE! I am so lame.
But I'm also almost twenty weeks pregnant! I am getting super excited for that ultrasound next Tuesday. You're going to have to talk me off a serious ledge if for some reason they're unable to tell us the sex of this baby.
Oh, also, quick question before I go: do you guys think it would be totally stupid to switch practicioners this late in the game? Because I just found out there's a new OB practice in a neighboring town just about twenty minutes from our house, and they have two MIDWIVES! Which is what I've wanted ever since Eli's birth, but our town now has a grand total of zero so I thought I was SOL and just chose the OB practice that was all female. Is it worth at least talking to the midwives to see if their pregnancy/birth philosophies are really that much different and more in line with mine? Or is it just going to confuse everything way too much? I've already started paying on my overall OB bill for the delivery and everything, so that part would be a total mess, plus everyone at that office knows my medical history and everything, and they're really nice, even if they are prescription happy. Help!